Day 1 Bring purpose to life

[Trish]

Hi Sophie -

Thank you for the first video. I am so glad you have given us permission to be a bumbling idiot.
I am having moments Jodie & Magda describe of being present with myself no looking at the
outside for how to be More mind body connection some realisition I have a "Self" somewhere needing some attention.

I don't need to be Rescued I can do this myself doing the work without making myself wrong or complaining this
come from the relistening of the Lifeskills workshop I had the idea this is doable A " I can do that" moment.

I Have set The words "Rescue Me" as a context this seems to give me some juice

Recenter myself to my Attitude/am I present and look, Also to distinguish The choice/Action I am making
I want to work on my health. This gives me the opportunity to ask is this taking me towards my goal ? Do I
want good health in the future or do I want my way in the present? choose.

I have been working on my Attitude this is making me feel a lot kinder towards my self and others.I would like to
continue with this.

I know I would like to read and enjoy the activity with more attention.

To What end? Enjoy any activity reguardless how mundane I can bring aliveness too being.

Thank you Trish

[Sophie]

Hi Sophie -

Thank you for the first video. I am so glad you have given us permission to be a bumbling idiot.
I am having moments Jodie & Magda describe of being present with myself no looking at the
outside for how to be More mind body connection some realisition I have a "Self" somewhere needing some attention.

I don't need to be Rescued I can do this myself doing the work without making myself wrong or complaining this
come from the relistening of the Lifeskills workshop I had the idea this is doable A " I can do that" moment.

I Have set The words "Rescue Me" as a context this seems to give me some juice

Recenter myself to my Attitude/am I present and look, Also to distinguish The choice/Action I am making
I want to work on my health. This gives me the opportunity to ask is this taking me towards my goal ? Do I
want good health in the future or do I want my way in the present? choose.

I have been working on my Attitude this is making me feel a lot kinder towards my self and others.I would like to
continue with this.

I know I would like to read and enjoy the activity with more attention.

To What end? Enjoy any activity reguardless how mundane I can bring aliveness too being.

Thank you Trish

your 'to what end' has not flavor... no imagination... you need to work on it until it is so good you hate yourself.

[Trish]

"No Flavour " Looking at my life through this filter" It certainly feels this way.
I have almost resigned myself to my fate. "I say" "Almost" as I have a gentler outlook
that has changed in perceptibly. The difference I see is I am not going down the road
of doom, blame and all name calling on myself the fear of being 'Not wanted" (my childhood story) by Sophie
to the opposite of arrogant/superior self protection.

I have been producing in the Kitchen in the past week using
ingredients I have either never used or not in a long time.

I find this is bringing something alive to invest in. I Love the process. Being excited about an idea a Recipe.The experience, Chopping the How, What Shape and size of the vegetable. I have favourite knifes, For cutting different Vegetables this is another source of engagement I enjoy. When I bring
my attention to these activities. This as the aliveness I have been denying.

Also the Attitude of " Having Too" is dissolving. Becoming very arrogant and matter of fact when I hit on something I enjoy or feel
some success. This always puzzles me ? Going down Hill at a speedy pace to a horrible hopelessness. This doesn't seem to be the case.

Maybe, Just Maybe I am taking some responsibility.

[Trish]

.........PS.........Just wanted to give a shout out to Baheej & Jodie for being here today your posting really is a gift. Thank you Tri

[Sophie]

"No Flavour " Looking at my life through this filter" It certainly feels this way.
I have almost resigned myself to my fate. "I say" "Almost" as I have a gentler outlook
that has changed in perceptibly. The difference I see is I am not going down the road
of doom, blame and all name calling on myself the fear of being 'Not wanted" (my childhood story) by Sophie
to the opposite of arrogant/superior self protection.

I have been producing in the Kitchen in the past week using
ingredients I have either never used or not in a long time.

I find this is bringing something alive to invest in. I Love the process. Being excited about an idea a Recipe.The experience, Chopping the How, What Shape and size of the vegetable. I have favourite knifes, For cutting different Vegetables this is another source of engagement I enjoy. When I bring
my attention to these activities. This as the aliveness I have been denying.

Also the Attitude of " Having Too" is dissolving. Becoming very arrogant and matter of fact when I hit on something I enjoy or feel
some success. This always puzzles me ? Going down Hill at a speedy pace to a horrible hopelessness. This doesn't seem to be the case.

Maybe, Just Maybe I am taking some responsibility.

yeah, cooking, experimenting with food can be enlivening... especially if you have SOME skills already, which you definitely do have.

[Trish]

The Urge and pull of" Hurry " has been the theme of today.
I didn't completely succeed until I got "Start where you are"

I am still working my way into Kindergarten. I felt a sense of Yes! This is perfect right
here, Where else is there to be? I made lunch and chewed my food slowly.

I lost my Husbands only good pair of reading glasses today, I was mad with my self for being" Entitled" to use
his belongings and not respectfully look after them. Or, if I do, Replace where I found them. I told him the
truth.

I didn't really see how "Hurry' REALLY kills Life. Until I ordered a replacement pair of glasses only I
ordered the wrong size a I felt it was a hard lesson I needed to see..............

Thank you Trish

[Sophie]

The Urge and pull of" Hurry " has been the theme of today.
I didn't completely succeed until I got "Start where you are"

I am still working my way into Kindergarten. I felt a sense of Yes! This is perfect right
here, Where else is there to be? I made lunch and chewed my food slowly.

I lost my Husbands only good pair of reading glasses today, I was mad with my self for being" Entitled" to use
his belongings and not respectfully look after them. Or, if I do, Replace where I found them. I told him the
truth.

I didn't really see how "Hurry' REALLY kills Life. Until I ordered a replacement pair of glasses only I
ordered the wrong size a I felt it was a hard lesson I needed to see..............

Thank you Trish

where are you hurrying to? what does the voice say?

[Trish]

I think it is saying " I am not doing enough "

[Sophie]

I think it is saying " I am not doing enough "

and then you hurry and really don't do enough... you have a real tough time learning, Trish

[Trish]

Hi Sophie -

After Fridays inability to slow down the "Hurried" I was bringing too everything

This morning, The penny literally dropped! Through the fog (Very tangible Fog) I got Oh, I can bring

The same ACTION as the chewing to my tasks? I know, you have been saying this for ever
I had a Marvelous Revelation. Simple but Not.

I have been doing a DIY job in the house. I wrestled back my Attention of starting in the middle no
mind chatter no objection to distract my self,

I Started, I finished, I ended.

I am more than happy with the result so far, Not my usual way of doing things - I made dinner later even though it was an
effort no 'Having to" Crept in, I am just a person. 'Doing" I have to keep going over my day I cannot get over the
difference of all my upset on Friday with today Smooth progress.