A note to Sophie

[Majeed]

Going forward without you is terrifying in the most unfamiliar way. I've had so many questions in last few days. Questions that I would have taken for granted that you would be around to answer.

I think I speak for all of us when I say I certainly could have done a much better job at doing the work you laid out for us. I am choosing to Not drown in what I could've done. There is no bottom in sight going down that road.

Many of us have benefited from your work in ways we have yet to account for, even if some of us haven't looked the truth in the eye to admit it. So thank you on all of our behalf.

As I am going back to re-listen and re-read your work, it hurts to know that I will see something I hadn't seen before, and you won't be around to hear it or redirect it. For better or worse, there's no one's acknowledgement that holds like yours.

Hey, would you ask Source if we can communicate with you through Source? I know, I know. Besides, here I am thirsty, and now looking to dig a well. But hey, I said it.

I have daydreamed about meeting you. Eating with you. Hugging you. Observing how you do life. I would even pick being chewed out on a call to more time with you.

I don't want you to be by yourself in your last days, but I honor your choice to do so.

I communicated with Jodie, and she expressed your wishes that we all support each other, and that is what we will do. If it is still possible, we welcome any ideas on the manner in which we do so. I am doubling down on my effort to be present doing the Drink your food challenge as I see it will serve us all in supporting each other.

If anyone is reading this that I'm not currently in touch with, here is my contact info if you'd like to stay in touch around what Sophie has created.
Baheej: bmportant@yahoo.com 804-921-6988

Love is too common of a word to use it here so when I find one just for us, I'll send it to you...

[Sophie]

Going forward without you is terrifying in the most unfamiliar way. I've had so many questions in last few days. Questions that I would have taken for granted that you would be around to answer.

I think I speak for all of us when I say I certainly could have done a much better job at doing the work you laid out for us. I am choosing to Not drown in what I could've done. There is no bottom in sight going down that road.

Many of us have benefited from your work in ways we have yet to account for, even if some of us haven't looked the truth in the eye to admit it. So thank you on all of our behalf.

As I am going back to re-listen and re-read your work, it hurts to know that I will see something I hadn't seen before, and you won't be around to hear it or redirect it. For better or worse, there's no one's acknowledgement that holds like yours.

Hey, would you ask Source if we can communicate with you through Source? I know, I know. Besides, here I am thirsty, and now looking to dig a well. But hey, I said it.

I have daydreamed about meeting you. Eating with you. Hugging you. Observing how you do life. I would even pick being chewed out on a call to more time with you.

I don't want you to be by yourself in your last days, but I honor your choice to do so.

I communicated with Jodie, and she expressed your wishes that we all support each other, and that is what we will do. If it is still possible, we welcome any ideas on the manner in which we do so. I am doubling down on my effort to be present doing the Drink your food challenge as I see it will serve us all in supporting each other.

If anyone is reading this that I'm not currently in touch with, here is my contact info if you'd like to stay in touch around what Sophie has created.
Baheej: bmportant@yahoo.com 804-921-6988

Love is too common of a word to use it here so when I find one just for us, I'll send it to you...

Deer Baheej, my body is telling me that maybe I should hang around more to actually answer... AFTER you do your own thinking, AFTER you mull it over with your community here. So what about that?

[Majeed]

Whooo Hooo! You betcha! I have been on the phone with Jodie about moving forward.

We welcome however you'd like us to proceed. We talked about posting on here and then adding posts as we do more of the thinking/mulling over. We even talked about responding to one another's posts. We aren't quite sure how this will go, but it occurred to me that each of us may have gotten one lesson deeper than the other person, and with that, maybe we can better support one another in those instances.

Either way, we are still in the game.

[Sophie]

Whooo Hooo! You betcha! I have been on the phone with Jodie about moving forward.

We welcome however you'd like us to proceed. We talked about posting on here and then adding posts as we do more of the thinking/mulling over. We even talked about responding to one another's posts. We aren't quite sure how this will go, but it occurred to me that each of us may have gotten one lesson deeper than the other person, and with that, maybe we can better support one another in those instances.

Either way, we are still in the game.

that' is the spirit!

[Jodie]

I echo the 'woo hoo! You betcha!'

It seems we all experienced almost identical feelings about the thought of moving forward without you...I liken it to pushing off on my unicycle and pedaling frantically with nothing to hold onto, knowing a crash is imminent.

There was much comfort in knowing we could stay connected in the forum...the things we have shared with each other are things our own families don't know about us, and sharing them in the context of your work is something that couldn't be shared with anyone else...and yet I for one have become aware of how much I don't know that I thought I knew, and the thought of contributing hoping to be of help and being mistaken or off-track myself was daunting. That's where having a place where the whole group can contribute and re-direct each other would be so valuable, and being able to still access the articles for guidance would be priceless.

I can't say it any better than Baheej did...we welcome however you'd like us to proceed, and we are still in the game...and so beyond glad that you're still in the game as well.

[Sophie]

I echo the 'woo hoo! You betcha!'

It seems we all experienced almost identical feelings about the thought of moving forward without you...I liken it to pushing off on my unicycle and pedaling frantically with nothing to hold onto, knowing a crash is imminent.

There was much comfort in knowing we could stay connected in the forum...the things we have shared with each other are things our own families don't know about us, and sharing them in the context of your work is something that couldn't be shared with anyone else...and yet I for one have become aware of how much I don't know that I thought I knew, and the thought of contributing hoping to be of help and being mistaken or off-track myself was daunting. That's where having a place where the whole group can contribute and re-direct each other would be so valuable, and being able to still access the articles for guidance would be priceless.

I can't say it any better than Baheej did...we welcome however you'd like us to proceed, and we are still in the game...and so beyond glad that you're still in the game as well.

I am embarrassed, I am humbled, and eventually I'll be happy I am alive. For now it's horrible, but, and that is the interesting part: It's been unconsciously though, but all self-inflicted. Last night I found what food had the bacterial load, unbeknownst to me, and I ate from it again. that was nine hours ago, and it's been pure torture. Thank god I have my hydrogen peroxide, and am now getting used to not sleeping at all...

Anyway, I hope I will be fully back with the living in a few days time.