Sophie's Challenges

Day 4 put me on the edge of something unknown and scary.

I still chew my food until it is more or less liquid, I do it as mindfully as I can and I can even imagine continuing this until the end of my life. It would probably improve my health. But it doesn't make the big change. It is like being on the wagon - it improves your health because you don't take toxic substance, but it doesn't make you sober. You can still have intoxicated mind that leads you to wretched life by repeating destructive patterns.

I know, I know, Sophie is talking about it all the time I know it too but today I felt it in my bones and every cell of my body. I got so scared as if I faced The Last Judgement. I have a choice to make, the kind of choice which seems unbearable to my mind. The choice is Life or Death, when Death means wretched life and Life means... sacrificng everything. I got nausea. Then it almost made me cry. Really. I am over a precipice and I know I have to jump. Like in my dreams from the last few years.

My attitude is that I am courageous enough to be healthy and free. I verbalised it this way knowing that the challenge is not about just food. I had no idea how much courage I need to make it meanigful.
This is my first challenge with Sophie and it swept me off the chessboard. Sophie, you Witch!

PS I really wanted to write about resources and opportunity. I was thinking about it. I probably overthought

I got so scared as if I faced The Last Judgement. I have a choice to make, the kind of choice which seems unbearable to my mind. The choice is Life or Death, when Death means wretched life and Life means... sacrificng everything. I got nausea. Then it almost made me cry. Really. I am over a precipice and I know I have to jump. Like in my dreams from the last few years

Yes, Magda. It is really choosing between Life and Death. Well caught. And when you choose Life you can make it wonderful. Death? Not so much.

You seem to be the first person to catch... Smart smart cookie. Thank you very very much.

Hi Magda, I hope you see this because I don't think I have your email address. Sophie has passed on.

Some of her students have expressed an interest to continue doing the work, and I invite you to continue with us. We haven't worked out the details as of yet, but you are welcome to join us. I was going to give up and choose death, and then I spoke with Jodie- one of Sophie's sharpest students- and afterwards I decided to choose life for me and for Sophie.

If you are just getting this, then I imagine you may want to take some time to go through your personal process.

If and when you are ready, here is my email address- bmportant@yahoo.com. FYI- I've noticed that some of my emails from the students have been going to spam so I'll check it from time to time, but I can receive messages on Facebook as well: Baheej Ely Majeed is the name on there.

I hope you find this message