Sophie's Challenges

Trish wrote: ↑Tue Nov 07, 2023 9:50 am Hi Sophie -

Thank you for the first video. I am so glad you have given us permission to be a bumbling idiot.
I am having moments Jodie & Magda describe of being present with myself no looking at the
outside for how to be More mind body connection some realisition I have a "Self" somewhere needing some attention.

I don't need to be Rescued I can do this myself doing the work without making myself wrong or complaining this
come from the relistening of the Lifeskills workshop I had the idea this is doable A " I can do that" moment.

I Have set The words "Rescue Me" as a context this seems to give me some juice

Recenter myself to my Attitude/am I present and look, Also to distinguish The choice/Action I am making
I want to work on my health. This gives me the opportunity to ask is this taking me towards my goal ? Do I
want good health in the future or do I want my way in the present? choose.

I have been working on my Attitude this is making me feel a lot kinder towards my self and others.I would like to
continue with this.

I know I would like to read and enjoy the activity with more attention.

To What end? Enjoy any activity reguardless how mundane I can bring aliveness too being.

Thank you Trish

Trish wrote: ↑Thu Nov 09, 2023 4:39 am "No Flavour " Looking at my life through this filter" It certainly feels this way.
I have almost resigned myself to my fate. "I say" "Almost" as I have a gentler outlook
that has changed in perceptibly. The difference I see is I am not going down the road
of doom, blame and all name calling on myself the fear of being 'Not wanted" (my childhood story) by Sophie
to the opposite of arrogant/superior self protection.

I have been producing in the Kitchen in the past week using
ingredients I have either never used or not in a long time.

I find this is bringing something alive to invest in. I Love the process. Being excited about an idea a Recipe.The experience, Chopping the How, What Shape and size of the vegetable. I have favourite knifes, For cutting different Vegetables this is another source of engagement I enjoy. When I bring
my attention to these activities. This as the aliveness I have been denying.

Also the Attitude of " Having Too" is dissolving. Becoming very arrogant and matter of fact when I hit on something I enjoy or feel
some success. This always puzzles me ? Going down Hill at a speedy pace to a horrible hopelessness. This doesn't seem to be the case.

Maybe, Just Maybe I am taking some responsibility.

Trish wrote: ↑Fri Nov 10, 2023 3:00 pm The Urge and pull of" Hurry " has been the theme of today.
I didn't completely succeed until I got "Start where you are"

I am still working my way into Kindergarten. I felt a sense of Yes! This is perfect right
here, Where else is there to be? I made lunch and chewed my food slowly.

I lost my Husbands only good pair of reading glasses today, I was mad with my self for being" Entitled" to use
his belongings and not respectfully look after them. Or, if I do, Replace where I found them. I told him the
truth.

I didn't really see how "Hurry' REALLY kills Life. Until I ordered a replacement pair of glasses only I
ordered the wrong size a I felt it was a hard lesson I needed to see..............

Thank you Trish

Trish wrote: ↑Fri Nov 10, 2023 3:15 pm I think it is saying " I am not doing enough "