Who am I without the comparison to others?
Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2023 2:04 pm
Who am I without the comparison to others? This question just came to me. So, I’ll need to chew on it.
This is all being stirred up from today’s article. I am where I am until I look at someone else and take what the voice says I should be as so. I am turning 50 in a couple of days and never has the voice been so busy. Busy saying all of the things I should have by this age. LOL
Before today, I was thinking that my problem was not embracing ‘process.’ Which had me looking at what isn’t and is process. However, if I have it correctly, the ‘hurry’ is from mistakenly thinking that I should be there or somewhere already so I hurry to get there which doesn’t allow me to undergo a process, just jumping.
Well, first off, Sophie, I need to acknowledge that I didn’t trust that detaching from my self-importance would allow me to take care of myself. That feeling of I’m nobody was/is quite formidable.
I can’t live the life of fulfillment I’ve wanted without dropping this self-importance. There is no clever work-around.
In other words, the prince must die in order for there to be entry to the kingdom. (Maybe this needs to be reworded, LOL)
Anyway, I will have all of the friction/agitation the voice can throw at me over these next few days- family and friends who know me as how I see them and plenty of temptation to compare myself to them and what they have.
You may be getting tired of me saying this, but thank you as I would have nothing but utter suffering, at this point in my life, without your work.
This is all being stirred up from today’s article. I am where I am until I look at someone else and take what the voice says I should be as so. I am turning 50 in a couple of days and never has the voice been so busy. Busy saying all of the things I should have by this age. LOL
Before today, I was thinking that my problem was not embracing ‘process.’ Which had me looking at what isn’t and is process. However, if I have it correctly, the ‘hurry’ is from mistakenly thinking that I should be there or somewhere already so I hurry to get there which doesn’t allow me to undergo a process, just jumping.
Well, first off, Sophie, I need to acknowledge that I didn’t trust that detaching from my self-importance would allow me to take care of myself. That feeling of I’m nobody was/is quite formidable.
I can’t live the life of fulfillment I’ve wanted without dropping this self-importance. There is no clever work-around.
In other words, the prince must die in order for there to be entry to the kingdom. (Maybe this needs to be reworded, LOL)
Anyway, I will have all of the friction/agitation the voice can throw at me over these next few days- family and friends who know me as how I see them and plenty of temptation to compare myself to them and what they have.
You may be getting tired of me saying this, but thank you as I would have nothing but utter suffering, at this point in my life, without your work.