One Step At A Time???
Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2024 3:18 pm
Well, I've been telling myself, 'you can do this' while I'm still not quite confident. I went back to doing the Drink Your Food Challenge without watching TV or listening to music which turned out to be quite challenging. I have been able to chew my food to the point of or near liquification for some time now, but my attention was not on what I was doing really. Certainly not how she talked about putting all power into the action. This training needs to be maintained, and I am known for 'resting on my laurels.'
At the very least, I can continue working on this. This may be the best gift we've gotten from Sophie. I will use it as a baseline.
I have to admit that I have been out of sorts lately, and at times overwhelmed with the realization that Sophie is really gone. I also have been looking at what it is to grieve vs. being lead into drama from the voice in my head saying how I fucked up the opportunity to learn what I could have. This is all new territory for me.
I went back to the Bob The Butler article she wrote on Dec 25th with the Rubin's Vase picture. It was there that I am starting to see that 'living in the space' is how I may be able to move forward without beating myself up for what I didn't do or didn't learn while Sophie was here.
If I have it correctly, 'living in the space' is doing what I'm doing for the sake of doing it and having no concern for how it makes me look no matter how things turn out.
Another thing I noticed is that many of us have different abilities/distinctions that the character Bob did not have, and we could potentially do so much more with what we have, if we managed to 'live in the space.'
If there is anyone reading this, I welcome your reply. We can be in this together still, while we have this forum up.
At the very least, I can continue working on this. This may be the best gift we've gotten from Sophie. I will use it as a baseline.
I have to admit that I have been out of sorts lately, and at times overwhelmed with the realization that Sophie is really gone. I also have been looking at what it is to grieve vs. being lead into drama from the voice in my head saying how I fucked up the opportunity to learn what I could have. This is all new territory for me.
I went back to the Bob The Butler article she wrote on Dec 25th with the Rubin's Vase picture. It was there that I am starting to see that 'living in the space' is how I may be able to move forward without beating myself up for what I didn't do or didn't learn while Sophie was here.
If I have it correctly, 'living in the space' is doing what I'm doing for the sake of doing it and having no concern for how it makes me look no matter how things turn out.
Another thing I noticed is that many of us have different abilities/distinctions that the character Bob did not have, and we could potentially do so much more with what we have, if we managed to 'live in the space.'
If there is anyone reading this, I welcome your reply. We can be in this together still, while we have this forum up.