Sophie's Challenges

Trish wrote: ↑Thu Oct 19, 2023 3:02 pm I have been not been present the last few days with my chewing & my attitude “ I know what I am doing” - well I don’t. I find it so easy to go into hiding and just shrink like a small child with my hands on my eyes.

Thank goodness for the videos they have woken me up to the hole I have dig for myself.

Re focused I am working on conversation for opportunity
I just wanted to post to not lose momentum.

Thank you
Trish

I am rooting for you. You know that you are literally killing yourself with your attitude... literally

Attitude -

I have not been sleeping well the last few days. I noticed
The urge to multi task while eating, A struggle to win back my attention to the food and chew with my attention firmly on the food in my mouth.

I am over thinking the challenge to the point of not having anything relevant to say, Too much chatter not enough content.

I hope this is just a temporary overwhelm (thank you
Sophie for today’s article ) feeling stupid and in -coherent more so than usual.

Thank you
Trish

Trish wrote: ↑Fri Oct 20, 2023 1:00 pm Attitude -

I have not been sleeping well the last few days. I noticed
The urge to multi task while eating, A struggle to win back my attention to the food and chew with my attention firmly on the food in my mouth.

I am overthinking the challenge to the point of not having anything relevant to say, Too much chatter not enough content.

I hope this is just a temporary overwhelm (thank you
Sophie for today’s article ) feeling stupid and incoherent more so than usual.

Thank you
Trish

Yeah, today's article will be a serious disruption for most people.

I have caught myself eating emotionally today I have been eating meals only for the last few weeks and this has helped with being mindful of the chewing as soon as “I sit” I am reminded to chew.

I found myself looking for bits of food to eat in the pantry I stopped and asked if I was hungry? Thirsty ? I looked and settled on avoiding.

I saw my “Stinginess”my soul correction, (thank you Sophie for the article on curiosity) but I could say is my floor and my boulder.

One decision I made in the area of “learning” I never connected the dots that I could learn. life could take me to places if I put in some effort somewhere my education experience Told me I was “Stupid” I never tried to find out otherwise.

I think it goes also in the direction of “Easy , Avoiding “ and not being able to be with “stupid” long enough to change anything.


I believed I am unable too and I have stuck with this lie all my life.

The challenge is becoming a habit with the process. I too was having a problem with the chocking after eating but I seem to have adjusted to this by chewing for longer.

Chewing water also makes me feel fuller quicker. I noticed I have not been drinking as much.


Thank you Trish

Trish wrote: ↑Wed Oct 25, 2023 4:50 pm I have caught myself eating emotionally today I have been eating meals only for the last few weeks and this has helped with being mindful of the chewing as soon as “I sit” I am reminded to chew.

I found myself looking for bits of food to eat in the pantry I stopped and asked if I was hungry? Thirsty ? I looked and settled on avoiding.

I saw my “Stinginess”my soul correction, (thank you Sophie for the article on curiosity https://yourvibration.com/94074/the-floor/) but I could say is my floor and my boulder.

One decision I made in the area of “learning” I never connected the dots that I could learn. life could take me to places if I put in some effort. somewhere my education experience told me I was “Stupid”. I never tried to find out otherwise.

I think it goes also in the direction of “Easy, Avoiding “ and not being able to be with “stupid” long enough to change anything.

I believed I am unable too and I have stuck with this lie all my life.

The challenge is becoming a habit with the process. I too was having a problem with the choking after eating but I seem to have adjusted to this by chewing for longer.

Chewing water also makes me feel fuller quicker. I noticed I have not been drinking as much.


Thank you Trish

I never would have guessed that you thought yourself stupid from your behavior. Yeah, start connecting the dots, Trish. It does take work, it does take time, but it is satisfying.

Looking at my life through this Entitled lens goes right to the heart of all my stories and my first incident just because “I want” to go to my parents bed because I was scared night after night telling no one “ Why” I can see I made up the only ONE way to get what I want. Take it and suffer the consequences there is no other way for me rigid and Entitled.

Is being scared entitled? I think so. Does life care Is the question (thank you Sophie) No, Life does not care. That is the yard stick I will use from now on.

I was challenged on all fronts when I started to look at all the things I think I am entitled to -

I should have priority in a cafe for my food order over take-away orders - funny and ugly at the some time

I just beginning to take notes.

Trish wrote: ↑Sat Oct 28, 2023 5:03 am Looking at my life through this Entitled lens goes right to the heart of all my stories and my first incident just because “I want” to go to my parents bed because I was scared night after night telling no one “ Why” I can see I made up the only ONE way to get what I want. Take it and suffer the consequences there is no other way for me rigid and Entitled.

Is being scared entitled? I think so. Does life care Is the question (thank you Sophie) No, Life does not care. That is the yard stick I will use from now on.

I was challenged on all fronts when I started to look at all the things I think I am entitled to -

I should have priority in a cafe for my food order over take-away orders - funny and ugly at the some time

I'm just beginning to take notes.

Hell yeah... So question: are you DOING anything different now that you see this?

“Am I doing things differently now, I have the insight of how entitled I am ?”

I am saying Yes …but time will tell The food challenge has given me a path, Shown me it is “I” who has to effort not the precious “I” taking responsibility is welcome not something to run to hills from.

I am looking how I can do things differently be different as a possibility real not something to be a mouth piece too. I am reclaiming some parts of me I have dismissed along the way.

I use “slighted” to be offended which is interesting as this is my soul correction. but also it’s is another flavour of Entitlement. yesterday I became quite giddy at all the the things I had seen as slighted/entitlement where in every interaction, Quite overwhelming at the way I am so focused on myself in the world, but I have not made myself “Wrong” which I find new. I small flicker of appreciation is growing

Trish wrote: ↑Sat Oct 28, 2023 3:07 pm “Am I doing things differently now, I have the insight of how entitled I am ?”

I am saying Yes …but time will tell The food challenge has given me a path, Shown me it is “I” who has to effort not the precious “I” taking responsibility is welcome not something to run to hills from.

I am looking how I can do things differently be different as a possibility real not something to be a mouth piece too. I am reclaiming some parts of me I have dismissed along the way.

I use “slighted” to be offended which is interesting as this is my soul correction. but also it’s is another flavour of Entitlement. yesterday I became quite giddy at all the the things I had seen as slighted/entitlement where in every interaction, Quite overwhelming at the way I am so focused on myself in the world, but I have not made myself “Wrong” which I find new. I small flicker of appreciation is growing

OK, so for now it is all inner actions. Any outer actions you could take? A project, for example? Short, sweet, with a deadline? Using the Structure for fulfillment?